I QUIT!!

YES!! It is TRUE!!! I can hardly believe it myself. I quit my job, lots of people having a hard time finding a job or losing their job and I am quitting mine!! My last day is May 18th I will get up pack my stuff up, take it to the office and be done. When I first started with the State of Utah, I never thought I would be with them as long as I have. Then being with them for almost 12 years I never thought I would leave. I worked for the Dept of Human Services from Oct 1999 as an Office Tech, Admin Secretary, then a Payroll Tech. I got hired on with Dept of Workforce Services in March 2003 as an Eligibility worker and have been doing that ever since. I started telecommuting in May of 2008 and it has been what has kept me working as long as I have. If I were in the office with all the changes/drama/office politics/etc. I would have been in the loony bin long ago. No really, my job has not quite made me the person I would like to be and I am the only one to blame because no one can change me but me. It is a rewarding thing to help people, but it is hard and emotionally draining as well when they come to expect you to give them what they think they deserve. I hate to admit this, but I was even put on some anti-depressant medications last Fall, the Dr said he didn't think it would be long term, so I thought I would go off them to see how I would do since I decided to quit working. Guess What?!? I have been just fine without them. Proof that it was my job that was making me feel the way I did and put me into a depression. Of course I think I am still on a high for knowing that in a couple of weeks I will be able to stay home with the kiddos. We will see maybe once I am home with the kids I will be into a different kind of depression. That will not happen, I won't let it. So you ask Why now?
Our bills are minimal and we worked it out after lots of back and forth talking that I get to quit and I couldn't be more excited. Now if you talk to Jason he is having to just rely on faith and a lot more nervous then I am. If I need in the future I may find something at nights a few days a week or when the kids are in full time school it would be fun to be a cook at the school or substitute teach, who knows?!? I have made lists of fun things I am going to do with the kids. I have made a list of things I want to get done and ways to be more organized around the house too. I know I am a good Mom and I love my kids, but being a working mom in the back of my head I felt like I was not the Mom I wanted to be. I am excited to be able to teach them and have them for myself during the days. Perfect time right before school ends to have the whole summer to do with the kids. I am excited to have a whole year to myself with Brylee before she starts Kindergarten. A few people have asked me what I am doing for preschool and I say, I haven't had her all to myself so she and I will play school and learn what they do in preschool. She is very social and has been in daycare/preschool, I will just make sure she knows what she needs when she starts kindergarten. I am excited to be a better wife and just feel better about myself and become better at things I was lacking. I have a few things I am nervous about, but I have faith that a higher power is more aware of what is needed for my family and all will work out the way it should. I say "I Choose FAITH!"